Valentine's Day

Valentine Day? or Singletine's Day?
This is the 22nd years I'm celebrating Valentine's day alone. Today should be a very joyful, sweetest, memorable day, somehow, it became my most emotional and unhappy day for years. I doesn't want it to be like that, I doesn't want it to be so emotional, but what can I do? I've done my best, I put my heart, I done all the efforts I'm able to do, still....... no one really appreciate?...

Anyway, I know there will be someone that really loves me and appreciate my efforts...... yea, felt slightly better... I guess, that's all for this emo post...

满足感

什么是满足感? 对我而言, 今天我感到满足了... 终于..见了她一面! 她..依然还是我心中的她...一切安好.. 虽然就只是那么几分钟,但那份满足感无法解释, 只希望她健健康康, 快快乐乐的...就够了...=]

Time isn't always the Best Medicine

As refering to the title of this post, yea.. TIME is one of the medicine but it is not always workable in respect of different circumstances...

自从收到那封信息的那天起, 已经过了将近一个月的时间没联络了, 这段时间确实真的很'煎熬', 满脑子乱七八糟的, 想着时间应该可以淡化一切, 但似乎没什么帮助...
除夕夜的前一晚, 将近深夜时我竟然收到她的信息...当时我真的不知该如何, 高兴之余又有点担心..担心我又会掉入同样的陷阱.. 最后, 我忍着心里的不甘,焦虑.. 冷淡的回复她... 那个晚上... 真的很难入睡...

之后, 陆陆续续我还是压抑不着我的心... 和她继续谈起来了.. 感觉上比之前还要要好, 虽然没能见面...但信息里能感觉到她真的想和我继续做朋友..

到了新年期间, 拜年是每个家庭,人与人之间都会做的事, 想着想着...就想借这个机会, 看看最近的她是不是还好..可是事与愿违.. 明天就是最后一天的华人新年了.. 只能再等机会了.. 没什么..只是想看看她..

在Facebook看到一个post,


"If You can't get someone out of your head, maybe they are suppose to be there"

看了这个post, 发觉到...我忘不了..是不是意味着我不应该忘? 现在也不能想太多了.. 只希望她一切安好..就足够了... =')

我心碎了妳...懂吗?

我...下厨?!

这post的主题很明显, 就是..'我...下厨了!'



不是讲笑, 味道还真的不差...朋友说的啦..=D
一路来只拿笔和篮球的我..竟然拿起了'铲'了! 自己也觉得很不可思议.. 以我朋友对我的认识, 我一路来只等吃多过自己下厨..简称'好吃懒做!' xD

至于'为什么'会决定这么做, 我只能说'everything happen for a reason'. 很简单, 就为了圣诞节礼物..
虽然关系已经是冷淡了下来...但, 思念的心好像已经 make appointment 了将, 到时到后'她'一定来我的心'报道'..所以,圣诞礼物就想亲手做一些东西,希望能挽回一些..想想..就想到了亲手做Cookies, 心里是想这应该能给她留下美好的圣诞节..
就因为这原因, 二话不说就决定了亲手下厨'bake cookies!'







一个字形容....香!! xD




经过这个经历, 我发现其实真心为你喜欢和你想为其付出的她亲手制作一些东西 是一件很享受的事情,想想她看到礼物..高兴到跳起来的画面, 感觉好满足... 一切都是值得的... 渐渐的, 所谓的'麻烦''辛苦'都被遗忘了...反而当看到成果, 我...笑了 ^^

说真的, 能不能给到她, 她的反应, 她会否不高兴, 一切都是处于'UNCERTAIN'的状态... 但我不要再犹豫了.. 只希望, 我的付出, 我的诚意, 我的真心, 能被看到...

Merry Christmas..

HoHoHo~ its Xmas! Although whole morning n afternoon 'fighting with notes', but I do have some sort of 'family harmonious' with my big family including relatives comes from penang, my hometown! ^^

Santa Santa, I just wish what I wish will come true, can?
What I suppose to do, What I wish to do as being a person liking her, I've done all. I put all efforts, all my best I can to tell and express my truth feeling. I just want to stop lying anymore, I wish I can face her with my true feelings instead of keep acting like I'm not like that. I wish 'I can be SEEN by her', I wish to tell that 'I'm serious, I'm not playing not joking'....

The only thing I can do now is 'wait', and I'll wait...What I've done and said, I meant it.. so, SANTA! fulfill my wishes can? plzzzzzz

anyway, MERRY XmaS everybody ^^

我喜欢妳 ♥

有时候, 真的很想把这四个字大声地向她说出口..可事与愿违..错过了机会, 就得承受后果.. 要怪就怪我当初的'害怕'..把我害惨了..

最近FB经常都会有一些quotes, 但我发现最有意思的是'If you Like someone, tell her because she won't wait for you, at least, you've tried your best with no regrets'...
说的蛮对..但没机会..也不是对的时间下说出口只会造成不好的结局... 可我该等到什么时候?
有时候在想...为什么就只是我一个人在努力? 就算是朋友..也应该是双方的付出吧? 我在她的世界里又是什么? 为什么可以变化得这么大? 我...不明白...很累了...

真心的付出...真心的喜欢....真心的等待... 我...喜欢妳 =)